Letter to Her

Dear Mommy..



First of all I won't call you 'Mommy', 'Mom', or 'Mother', cause that's not the way I called you.



Mamah. My most beautiful Mamah. My bestest, caring, loveable Mamah.

I miss you.

I keep saying that, everywhere, in my mind, my mouth and my heart.

I miss everything. Your touch, your hugs while we cuddled together, your hands, the one that I addicted to.

Even your crazyness about preparation and stuffs.

I miss the way you called me "Ading". You're the only person in the world who call me that.

I miss your voice. Your angelic voice. Your cheeks. The softness of your cheeks when I kissed you.



I hate past tense! Why I should said 'kissed', not kissing? And 'cuddled' not cuddling?



I know cause those are things I will never gonna do again. Yeah maybe I will, but not with you.



I really sorry for everything I've done and what I haven't done. I know it's not enough, to pay everything you did to me. Your sacrifice, your love. Your truly sacred love.



I don't know how can I go on without you, Mah. Those people keep saying "You have us" "If you need anything talk to us". But the fact is, they're not THERE.



But somehow I realize.. You're there. You, yes you, are THERE. Smiling at me while watching tv, peeking from the kitchen's door while you cook and preparing our meal. Even welcoming me at the front door with your big hug everytime I'm coming back home.



Yes. The -ing is coming again.

I forgot, in our love, past tense will never ever gonna exist.



Cause our love, love of a mother and daughter,

will remain forever.









"Heaven makes you even prettier, Mah.."





Love,

Diyang Renantia



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My Drugs for Boredom

Felt like having no passion today, I tried to find some activities by opened style.com and looked for an interesting collection. I ended up choose Balmain, and I clicked its complete Fall 2009 collection. When I saw those beautiful dresses and fabric.. Damn! It was like love at first sight. I had seen some of this collection before but I've never had a chance to find out about its complete collection. Pictures above are some of my lovely picks of the collection. Isn"t it beautiful? I would looooooove.. to have all of them, haha.

Btw, it's April and I can't believe it's already have been a year! Yes, me and my boyfriend will celebrate our first anniversary this 2t8th! Geez, have no power to wait until the day!

(I actually planning something for him -but- it'll be our little secret okay? Ssstt :p)

Love love everyone!


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Thankful Weak - end

It's 10 o'clock in the morning, and I just woke up from my hibernation. I have no clue what I have to do now, guess it's one of the effect of having too much sleeps. Today is Sunday, and last night I didn't go anywhere actually, and it's kinda weird that I feel so tired right now. Yesterday, I just came by to Kelapa Gading Mall to watch my friend performing there. Their band is pretty cool and I was enjoy watching it. After that, my plan was meet my dear old bestfriend, Kamila. She is my high school friend, we're so close at that moment but during my hecticness and problems and stuffs, it's rare for us to meet. I can't put my picture with her in here, she was just not in the mood for taking picture, cause she was in excruciating pain as the impact of her new braces. It's a silly excuse actually, but well, I don't know what she felt right? And I'm kinda jealous, cause I always want to wear braces but I don't really have time, and money (that's the main problem actually). But, finally there is a good news! My mom is going back home !!! Yaaayy I'm so damn happy. Can't wait to see her. Hope she can get well soon. ♥ heeerrr. Thanks God! :)

Good Time, Girls ;-)

Gosh I'm having such a good time right now! Me and my GGks girls are having a BBQ party at Bianda's house, and we're having so much fun! We ate plentyyy of food (we've done a 'little' shopping spree before :p), and right now we are doing karaoke crazzzzily. We've just about gossiping all night later, and too bad I can't join :( I have to get back to my sister's house, cause tomorrow I will go back to Purwakarta for visiting my mom. I missssss herrrrr :( Hope she will alright. Forever in my life.

Zonky Mid- Term

"Oh Happy Day.. Oh Happy Daaaaayyy.."

Sumpah, gw nyanyi itu bukan karena itu yang gw rasain. Dan sumpah, gw pengen bangettt bisa ngerasain itu sekarang! Ini tuh ibarat nya kalo di teori komunikasi, kayak expectancy violence theory atau teori pelanggaran harapan yang artinya...

DIYANG. STOP.
Jadi gw sekarang seakan- akan dibudaki oleh hal yang beberapa hari ini gw jalani yaitu something that you called mid-term test. Atau bahasa prokem nya adalah UTS. Jadi hari ini gw mengalami UTS yang paling menyiksa jiwa, wait, ga paling diyang, karena besok masih adaaaa huaaaa! Siksaan hari ini adalah MPK Bahasa Inggris dan Teori Komunikasi. MPK Bahasa Inggris yang, well, semasa SMA sebenernya cukup gw kuasai (yah ga bego bego amat lah ga sampe ngartiin 'joystick' sebagai 'batang kesenangan' -woohoo), and the test didn't turn out so well. Listening nya paraaah, bahkan percakapan pertama terdengar seperti bahasa Cina. Dan Tekom, yaaaah mengarang bebas. Bebaaas sekali, saking bebas nya bikin hamil.

Besok adalah UTS terakhir, Sistem Sosial Indonesia dan Dasar Dasar Penulisan, dan I'm still sigh-ing about it, dan belom ada niat buat membuka lembaran- lembaran neraka berupa handout.

Tapi agak sedikit excited akan besok, soalnya mau senang- senang sama tante- tante GGks :)

Semoga besok ada mukjizat. Mukjizat dimana otak orang yang sudah belajar ditransfer ke otak gw yang kopong ini.

One day left, Diyang..

Long Weekend, Longer Thoughts

Hallo, just a fling from my daily activities. I just arrived from Purwakarta, visiting my mom in International Holistic Hospital. She is ill, a quite serious ill, and she has had to go to that hospital, it's our only hope. But, since when I and my dad came she looked better, I think everything is gonna be fine and it's all will go back to normal again. Right, God? Just pray for my mom ok :)

"So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. Eventually feels a lot better than actually."

-Meredith Grey in Grey's Anatomy